"ASSbury park"

[Sent april 16. We've been busy, okay? -- BfM]

new jersey really is as shitty as people say it is. i figured it was something like british people's teeth where it's not THAT bad, even out in the sticksville nowheres. but ner jersey is just a wasteland. factories and suburbs that look like ikea and domino's had babies all over a big marsh. doesn't help that it's raining a lot and thus i'm STUCK HERE where tgifriday's is the cheapest place to drink. how can a place be so close to a big, awesome city and not have some kind of residual coolness fallout? liek nuclear winter of awesome. no. not in jersey. fuck you and your stepford suburbs, jersey. tehre are some real mansions out here. wall street types who will commute for hours just to keep their kids in safe places. it just radiates anxiety.

while i'm at it, fuck airports. tey're depressing places of hell where all the things you dont want to thinkabout come out especially when you're travelling alone and feeling pretty small anyway. do i want to think about all my self-doubt in sky harbor? NO. what about exes in O'Hare? NO. and now i'm in newark wondering why the hell i'm thinking about moving away from my amazing friends -- a new family, really...i love these people -- to a big city with no trees and no chance of me owning a dog. I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS IN AN AIRPORT. STOP RAINING ALREADY, FUCKING CLOUDS!/ If this were the pacific northwest of the amazon basin or somewhere, this wouldn't be such a big deal. but no. no no. its time for fridays!

and GET TEH HINT FACE. I'm TOO FUCKING OLD FOR ACNE.